One of the funniest things I read today ended with "Bitches please."
I probably won't be as funny as AtomicLuLu's comment on a mutual friend's Facebook status was.
Still, I find myself itching to write again. Facebook has a lot more immediate feedback in comments and "like's" from readers that keeps me coming back like the addict mouse pushing the lever to get the pellet push pellet push pellet push pellet push OMG WHERE IS MY FUCKING PELLET?
Sorry, didn't mean to shout.
Today's post is likely to ramble a bit. I don't have a clear topic I've planned to talk about. I'm just seeing what happens when I come back to the keyboard. Bear with me for a few days while I get my groove back.
I've just sat and stared at the screen for 5 minutes blankly.
Then I spent an hour writing a blogpost that is too personal for the internet and got filed away in my journal. By the time this is re-written and posted it will most certainly be Day 2 of the New Year. In my defense, SHUT UP THIS IS A FREE ENTERTAINMENT SERVICE.
Right. Let's try this again.
Each year I try to set goals for myself. Not resolutions per se, they are typically focused on personal development and things I want to learn. In 2007 I tried learning to enjoy things I wasn't necessarily The Best at, like pool or air hockey, without then compulsively feeling the need to practice them until I was The Best. In 2008 it was living deliberately and fearlessly - not a reckless danger seeking sort of thing but not letting fear of uncertainty or what others might think of me stop me from doing something. In 2009 it was learning to be less rigidly inflexible and symmetrical, but to embrace imperfection. To do this I took up abstract oil painting (a few examples here, here, and here). In 2010 I had a new job, new house, new life to learn to exist in. 2011 I tried to learn to rest more and take care of myself. I don't have to be working on something every minute, it is ok to sit and read a book for a few hours, I don't have to be DOING SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE. I might have learned this a little too well since there are three incomplete home improvement projects I haven't touched all year.
I don't know yet what I am going to try to learn in 2012. I'll let you know once I figure it out. I've got some new books on goal setting that I'm reading, I expect (hope) they will help me focus my thoughts.
About all I've got on the 'personal goals' list right now is a need to get back on a structured workout regime because I told my brother's girlfriend Emily that if she trained for a 5K race in Tucson in late March that I would come run it with her. I hate running. But my best friend is running the half marathon so I was going to go and be there anyway, and it is good to have goals... I don't actually care about the race, I just want to get back in shape and tone up. I don't have weight to lose, but I'd like to rebuild some of the muscle I had in 2008. Hopefully the race will help me get back in the swing of things on the personal fitness front.
There is a lot on my mind and heart these days, I just have to figure out how to write about it, and what to publish here vs keep in my journal. Things rolling around in my head that may or may not eventually become blogposts:
- our mele kalikimaka in Waikiki
- living in the moment and making it count
- giving back, and how I'm restructuring my charitable donations in 2012
- karaoke, movies, comics and pinball
- how I overcame my fear of flying in the early 90's
- just say no to drama (does not require me to return my Thespian varsity letter)
- turning awful tween television into positive teaching moments for children
- women who inspire me
- music review of concerts I attended in 2011 (there were a lot of them)
- possibly some posts inspired by lyrics
And since we started with "Bitches, please" making me laugh...
Let's be clear. If Ron had been kidnapped by dark forces you can bet your ass that Hermione would have mounted a rescue mission to save him.
And if Han had gotten irrationally jealous of Leia and Luke and run off in a snit there is no way Leia would have chased after him. Like Hermione she would have continued the battle against the Imperial Forces.
Either way, Bella's a pathetic bitch.
Happy New Year!
so glad to see you back at your blog! I have the same issue about keeping my own personal thoughts and those that are consumable by others. if you ever figure out a good way to keep it straight/organized, let me know!
Personally, my next blogs are meant to be about my memories of Kona and Abbey. I made a list after they died and I've been procrastinating since I know there will be many a tear shed in those writings.
Posted by: Jgonplay.wordpress.com | 01/04/2012 at 08:47 PM